This blog was initially set up in the name of baby koda.. cos he is the greatest LOVE of my life.. Now that he has gone to doggie heaven, I shall now close down this blog and keep him in my memory forever.. Before I go, allow me to leave my eulogy here for my angel koda..
To my dearest Koda,
Thank you for giving me the best 7 years and 6 months of my life. I can never forget the way u looked when u 1st came to me. U were such a small doggie but with such a big heart. U loved me in a way nobody else on earth can ever do, like I meant the whole world to u.. and mommy loves u the same way too.
Thank you for being my best mate, always there for me when I cried and told u the heartaches I was having. U seemed to understand and never fail to sit by my side and lick up my tears, as if telling me it's ok, dun cry. But as mommy was crying over u now, u are no longer by my side to comfort me.
Thank you for bringing such great joy to mommy. Despite how crappy my day has been, u never fail to cheer me up whenever u ran to the door excitedly the moment I stepped into the house. U will jump on me, lick my hands, dashed into my room, jumped onto my bed.. waiting for me to kiss u. It has been such a routine that mommy never realised how much it meant so much to me.. rather than for u.
I will miss the look on ur face every morning when u send me to the door before I go to work. U will rest ur head on the door grill as if telling me how bored u will be during the day while I'm away for work.
I will miss the nighttime we have. U will wait till my mommy switched off the lights in the living room and u know that it's now safe to jump onto my bed. U will always lick me before u curl up and sleep on ur side of my bed, as if telling me goodnite. And I will kiss u on ur forehead and hug ur warm fuzzy body the whole nite.
I will miss ur scent. My mommy will always complain about ur smell whenever it's nearing ur bathing day. But I never told her that I actually love ur doggie scent the most. I love smelling the top of ur head and ur paw paw despite knowing what u have stepped onto.. yup.. ur pee.
I will miss playing pillow with u. U like to bring ur pillow and drop it by my legs, waiting for me to play tug & war with u. U like to play fetch with the pillow and shake it like u have caught & conquered it. U will always perk up when I said the word "pillow" and went into a frenzy searching for it. Sometimes u cannot find it cos ur notti mommy has kept it behind my back.
I will miss mealtime with u. U will wait patiently while we were cooking pork in the pan, lying there in the kitchen. When I poured it into ur bowl and shouted "mum mum", u will bark and turn round and round while I'm bringing the bowl into my room. U can imagine how worried mommy was when u were not able to eat anything for the past few weeks, not even ur treats.
I will miss having u by my feet all the time, every single moment of the time we spent together. U will follow mommy around the house, everywhere I go, even to the toilet. When u were sleeping in the room or under my bed, and mommy tried to tiptoe out, u will always scramble and follow me as if mommy is not gonna wait for u. Even during the past few days when u were so so weak, u will still struggle to get up from ur bed and tried to follow me, only for a few steps.
I will miss the gai gai time we had together. U will go crazy when I asked u "where's ur leash" and dashed to the door. U will wait impatiently at the lift door and dashed out the moment the lift door opened. U will tug at the leash and pull mommy along even though daddy say it's not good. But I allow u to do that cos I know how happy and excited u are. But the last time we went for a walk, u were too weak to walk too far. Mommy had to pull u along and wait for u while u slowly make ur steps. Mommy know u were too tired to walk and we sat together on the bench at the playground. Mommy kept telling u to get better and stronger.. and I know u have tried ur best and fought on like my brave little boy.
Now that u have gone to doggie heaven, mommy pray very hard that u will be happy there.. and mommy keep having the thought that maybe there's really such a thing as guardian angel, and u are still by my side despite not able to see u.. and be my Angel Koda forever. There's no other best fren like u and no other dog can ever replace u.
