My Xmas Pressie from Dear Dear!

Woohoo!!!!  i got a white iPhone 16GB from dear dear as a xmas pressie!!!  and i haven bot his xmas pressie yet.. *guilty* (actually not really lar wahahaha)..

Happy Birthday, Baby Koda!

14 Dec is my baby koda's bdae! dis year we brought him to west coast park, together with my dear & jackie; my sister & family.. i bot him a cake from US doggy bakery @ turf club.. it's a heart shaped cake with the wordings "Happy Birthday Koda!" in pink! mei mei...

we had mac breakfast and koda & jackie had a great messy time eating the cream cake all by themselves.. too bad it's raining so we cant bring them out to walk walk..

actually every year when koda is celebrating his bdae my heart will ache.. not that im not happy for him to celebrate his special day but i will feel sad that he's one year older.. i will start tinking now dat he's 5 years old, how many more years can he be around..  *boohoo* sad sad... tears are welling up as im typing this.. *sniff sniff*

anyway here's the happy moments:

baby koda's pretty birthday cake!

me and bdae boy!

jackie and etc etc...

jaden enjoying his hotcakes happy meal!

b4 cake cutting....

and jaden insisted on cutting the cake with koda..

好眼淚 壞眼淚

我曾 认真 试爱着一个人

他给我幸福的可能
我等 我问 未来何时发生
他只是给我一个吻
快乐 我哭 是因为你的手
曾答应带我向前走
难过 我哭 是因为我的手
找不到你说的以后
好眼泪 坏眼泪 我都曾为你流
感动和悲伤都是理由
只不过在你不再爱我了以后
像坏的眼泪慢慢流
快乐 我哭 是因为我付出
得到你温柔的答覆
难过 我哭 是因为我认输
你的心永远留不住
好眼泪 坏眼泪 我都曾为你流
感动和悲伤都是理由
只希望在我不再想你了之后
有好的眼泪慢慢流
好眼泪 坏眼泪 我都曾为你流
感动和悲伤都是理由
只希望在我不再想你了之后
有好的眼泪慢慢流
有好的笑容陪着我...

5 Reasons Why I Didn't Update My Blog..

My BFFs sent me a warning email today stating that I hav not been very diligent in updating my blog.. they "threatened" to stop being my loyal blog readers!!!  imagine that coming from my dearest BFFs.. *sniff sniff*

i have got my reasons k so do hear me out b4 u gals make any regretful decisions wor:

1. I don't blog for a living.. I got to WORK in order to feed my cute baby koda.. and i came to realise i don't get any sponsored freebies just by whining in my blog (unlike some other species).. 
   
   
2. I guess i prefer to just either call or email cos how the heck am i supposed to know that my frens hav read abt my latest news in my blog.. well at least u cant ignore my calls & emails..  hiak hiak..
   
   
3. Blogging is not a lifetime commitment.. so i rather spend my precious time with my BFFs, frens, family and dear dear mah.. 
4. 
   I blog when im either happy or sad.. so if im neither i dun blog ya..
   
5. 
   Blogging doesn't get me to heaven ya.. wth..
   

C'est La Vie...

... a french phrase meaning "that's life"..






has been feeling that life is exasperating at times... feel that i cant control most of the thgs dat happen in life recently... @ work; in relationships; in my own destiny... i can only follow where life leads me to...

@ work.. im getting more and more frustrated.. impatient.. .. really dun understand why pple say certain thgs or do certain acts for the sake of.. arghhh.. i also dunno for wat.. si bo liao de lor.. on some instances i wanted to flare up but i lun.. dunno how long it can last.. so pls lar if u hav got nothg better to say den pls shut up lar.. @#^$&*

in terms of r/s.. im not talking abt BGR but rather all kinds of r/s with pple arnd me.. it's really difficult to manage no matter how hard i try.. it's like the closer it is the greater the fear factor.. dunno how to elaborate but i guess life is not meant to be easy......

wanted to change the way thgs are now but i am so lost....

sooooooooo.. im back to my shopping spree mood!!! damn..



i bought a burberry bag after much thots!! not gog to reveal the price cos i know one kaypoh will go tell my mom and she will slaughter me and chop me up into pieces and store it inside my big burberry bag.. wahaha..

and i did eyelashes extensions for the 2nd time.. went to appu's sis-in-law salon to do it and i loved it! no longer have to go thru the trouble of putting on mascara and eyeliner early in the morning...

wat's more to come???

Happy Events!!!

Happy 20th Anniversary!!!

wow realised long time din do the counter of me & dear anniversary alr.. sooooo it's now our 20th anniversary!!! though we din managed to celebrate our anniversary cos dear is working late, still feel happy that he remembers the day and sms me at 12am.. =)

thgs hav progressed since our 1st anni.. at least we hav our very 1st joint acc! (though dear has been a very stringent financial controller *bleah*).. we talked abt our future plans (though nothg is concrete yet).. we will be gog for another trip real soon!!! *sooooo looking fwd to it*

Happy Bdae to Jaden!!!

we celebrated Jaden's 3rd bdae @ Sheraton Towers on 19 Oct 08.. had a very relaxing time hvg brunch under the very nice ambience of the hotel..

Happy Halloween!!!

errr.. not sure if it's considered as a halloween celebration cos we were supposed to join in the halloween fun @ nite safari.. but we realised halloween nite is on fri & sat only when we rch there on a sun nite! arghh... the website is damn misleading lor.. but anyway we went ahead with the nite safari trip and managed to catch a glimpse of the planted eerie mannequins..

Happy Hair Cutting (???)

Well it's considered an happy event lar.. the last time i cut my hair short was like more than 10 years ago lor.. hav been contemplating whether to cut or not cos there are like 1001 advices from frens and all.. so after seeing sel sel cut her hair with nice effect and PG was saying u will neva know unless u cut.. i chopped off my long hair!!! im glad i made the decision.. i dun look so haggard and draggy (esp in photos if u know wat i mean).. feel much refreshed!

so here's my new look!

me & my inspirers: sel sel & PG!

Specially for my dear BFF..

initially wanna continue my blog on BKK today..  but after reading my two dearies frens blog, 突然有了心痛的感觉..  cant really concentrate on the BKK post cos that was an super duper happy event but i cant seem to enact that feeling at this moment.. 

只想让你知道那心痛的感觉我了解。。 也经历过。。

在这时候我没办法对你说你ok的。。 因为现在一定很难受。。

可是在你放开的过程，我们都在你身边。。

记得不许一个人承受。。 

there's always we BFF arnd!

just like one BFF wrote..  there hav been too many sad stories arnd us..  uncertainties and insecurities arise in my heart as i see sad stories unfold one following by another..  how many times must a person be hurt before one can find true love?  guess we hav to stay positive but remain  cautious thou by right love shd be sweet and simple..  contradicting ya but that's how it works..  we do not want to end up hurting ourselves again..  

anyway this post is for my 3 BFF!  im so glad to hav u gals as BFF cos we hav been thru happy, sad, upset, crazy moments tog..  im sure we will be arnd for one another at all times no matter wat..  so S: we will do anythg for u to make u feel better so just let us know..  yup and dat includes wat PG has said; be it scratch his car or kick his butt.. i can get my koda to poo poo outside his hse too..   *evil grin*

Complicated..

I don't like to think too much..  but sometimes I ponder over things endlessly..

I have trust..  but sometimes I lose faith in myself & others..

I am optimistic..  but sometimes I worry too much..

I am easy..  but sometimes I harp on things that don't turn out the way I want..

I love the people around me..  but sometimes they can do things that hurt immensely..

I am sensitive..  but sometimes I am over-sensitive to unintentional acts..

I am enjoying my life now..  but sometimes I sense uncertainties in my future..

I am simple..  yet complicated..  sometimes I don't even understand myself..

Shape Run 08 ~ Completed!

Yay!  i have finished my 1st run!  felt a sense of achievement the moment i finished the run.. though the distance is only 5km but to me it's already an accomplishment.. actually was really tired towards the end of the run and feel like walking just like some of the runners but PG urged me on and kept encouraging me.. thanks to my dear fren =)  

results? the cert has not been sent to us yet..  but according to the timer at the finishing point it's arnd 36 mins..  will post the exact timing when the cert arrives  ;)

now im looking fwd to our next run..  the Great Eastern Run on 26 Oct 08!

This Used To Be My Playground...

was in my fren's car and heard this song..  very sad..  

things are not the same as before..  whatever happened to the playground that held the childhood dreams?  it used to be a playground of pride and joy..  that no one in the world could dare destroy..  but why did it have to end?

This Used To Be My Playground

This used to be my playground (used to be)
This used to be my childhood dream
This used to be the place I ran to
Whenever I was in need
Of a friend
Why did it have to end
And why do they always say

Don't look back
Keep your head held high
Don't ask them why
Because life is short
And before you know
You're feeling old
And your heart is breaking
Don't hold on to the past
Well that's too much to ask

[chorus]

No regrets
But I wish that you
Were here with me
Well then there's hope yet
I can see your face
In our secret place
You're not just a memory
Say goodbye to yesterday (the dream)
Those are words I'll never say (I'll never say)

This used to be my playground (used to be)
This used to be our pride and joy
This used to be the place we ran to
That no one in the world could dare destroy

This used to be our playground (used to be)
This used to be our childhood dream
This used to be the place we ran to
I wish you were standing here with me

This used to be our playground (used to be)
This used to be our great escape
This used to be the place we ran to
This used to be our secret hiding place

This used to be our playground (used to be)
This used to be our childhood dream
This used to be the place we ran to
The best things in life are always free
Wishing you were here with me

S.A.D.

An unexpected incident happened which affects me a lot.. tears welled up in my eyes whenever i think about it.. how can such a beautiful thing turn out to be such.. really din expect it.. felt so helpless.. there's absolutely nothing i can do to help.. i am hoping and praying very very hard till it pains my heart.. dun wanna think about it but the images of the sad faces cant be shaken off.. how i wish it will go away soon...... as if nothing has happened..

My Happy Bdae Celebration!

had a super fun and memorable bdae dis year..  all these are made possible by my dearest frens and my lovable dear!  my bdae celebration lasted for 5 days haha..  i totally enjoyed myself over the 5 days!  thanks to all my frens for being so sweet and sporting..  SPECIAL THANKS to PG for her hard work in coordinating all these..  i know it's not easy and it surely takes effort to make the party an enjoyable one!  really very touched..  *sniff sniff*

Amara Sanctuary Villa (21 ~ 22 Jun 08)

my sweet frens planned an all gals nite stay @ Amara Sanctuary Villa..  PG told me it's for Yvon's bdae but i kinda expected it's our combined celebration..  but there are surprises!  din expect to see my two fun sistas and Appu there!  The villa is nice cosy place though a bit small.. but it's really beautiful with a private pool..  Appu tinks it's kinda kinky though cos the shower and bathtub area is all open and the doors of the toilets are transparent..  luckily all gals haha..

 

had fun munching the hills n mountains of food and playing water bombs and relaxing in the pool (technically i was being thrown in lor...) at the end of the nite only PG, Sel and myself stayed overnite..  we chit chat till quite late and the bed was so damn comfortable dat me n Sel din wake up when PG told us in the middle of the nite dat it's raining..  in the end the poor gal got to shift in our clothes away from the rain all by herself..  Opps..

the next morning it was still raining so cannot hav a dip in the pool lar..  we went for our complimentary breakfast for 2 and were all prepared to pay for the 3rd pax..  but they din charge it to the room leh (dunno if it's intentional or unintentional) how nice of them! hiak hiak..

after checking out of the villa we went to the foot reflexology center @ underwater world to try out the fish reflexology..  PG has done it b4 n i told her that i wanna try out leh..  at the moment of dipping my feet into the pool with the fishes swimming arnd, i seriously sincerely salute PG for being such a great pal to accompany us to do it even when she has tried it b4 cos it's really quite torturing!!!  so sorry to drag sel into dis wahaha..  it lasted for 20 mins but it feels like 2 hrs to me..  the moment the feet are in the fishes will dashed towards us and start to nibble..  guess it's still early n they r hungry??!!  we were giggling and squirming thruout lor.. 

 

had real fun with the bunch of dearest gals and thanx for the pressies..  my heartfelt THANKS! =)

Celebration with Dear (23 ~ 24 Jun 08)

me n dear took leave on 23 & 24 Jun and spent two whole days tog..  rare chance cos it's quite hard for dear to take ad hoc leave..  it was a relaxed day of eating!  we went to Bark Cafe to hav lunch and went to the changi museum and chapel to look at the history of WWII..  quite depressing to see the stories and facts of the war..  we actually wanted to sit in the DHL hot air balloon but it was closed for maintenance..  sad..

asked wong to help to book the bbq pit at their new plc so that we can hav my fav bbq food @ nite..  yummy!  we went to the wholesale bbq store @ frankurt to buy food and bring over to la casa..  had a small bbq session with coral & wong  =)

Birthday Dinner (25 Jun 08)

dear is not able to accompany me due to work commitment so dearest PG suggested to hav steamboat dinner with my bunch of nicest frens  =)  

went to The Chinese Feast @ Suntec and had a great time laughing thruout the dinner and caused dajie to hav hiccups and we got the blame (??)..  though the guys dun really know wat we are laughing at..  it's a gal thing ya..  haha.. 

Thanks to my dear frens for accompanying on my bdae and we really spent the best moments tog..  i really had a great time for my bdae!  Love ya!!!  ;)

My New iMac!

Gosh!  im blogging using my new iMac..  damn chio lor..  PG was relishing abt her iMac so i decided to recce the Apple roadshow at Parkway..  it was love @ 1st sight!  it's so sleek and cool..  there's no cpu cos everythg was in-built with the lcd..  though the lcd is only 20" but it seems big enough for my room and the resolution is so clear and sharp..  the keyboard is super ultra slim lor (sounds like sm sanitary pad adv ya =P)..  

i kept bugging dear and he helped to look thru the specs and thot that it's quite a good buy..  we went to the PC show at suntec on its 1st exhibit day and finally bot the iMac!  immediately went hm to set up..  makes my room looks very neat cos there's no more clutters of cables and wires.. and the speed is much much faster than my old "lao ya" PC..  but im still not too used to using mac though PG said that it's quite user friendly..  maybe im not as smart as her haha..  but who cares as long as it looks good and chio!  wahaha..

Woohoo~~

i have cossed my 2nd hurdle and passed my final theory test!!! was sooo stress b4 the test and even more so when i realised that the next available date is in July.. i kept telling myself during the test dat it's ok to go for a 2nd try if i failed dis time rnd but luckily the PASSED wording flash across the screen when i ended the test.. *phew*

now my next step is to start my driving lessons.. even more stress~~

Dear's Surprise Birthday!

dear will be working late on his birthday (so poor thg) so we gave him a surprise bdae celebration last sun.. thx to coral & wong, nat & jack! =)

we pre-planned to hav dear bdae celebration @ dempsey rd and my task is to convince him to go over to dempsey.. we were actually playing our X box when i suggested gog out for dinner.. a bit funny rite.. we were playing so happily halfway and i suddenly want to go out (??) but dear being very nice said ok.. drove up to dempsey and my 2nd task is to find the restaurant La Forketta.. wah lau eh it was so dark and there's soooo many restaurants so whr to find (?!) spent quite some time and finally found it..

ta daa... finally found the restaurant La Forketta!

went in the restaurant and joined coral & wong who's alr there.. dear was quite steady leh din really seem surprised.. chey.. we ordered our food while waiting for nat & jack to come.. the pizza is so-so only but the spaghetti with clams is superb! the clams are very fresh and it's not as tasteless as some vongole.. nice! the red wine dat coral ordered is quite good also..

after the dinner the waitress suddenly appeared with a piece of choc cake with a candle on it! haha dis is a surprise to me as well as coral din mention any cake.. and the gang bought him tops and jeans from topman and bods.. can see dat dear is happy over his bdae celebration =)

happy birthday boy!

birthday dear and dar..

we proceed to Harry's Bar after dat to hav a drink and some snacks.. it was a relaxing and happy nite spent with our bunch of good frens =)

Happy Mama Day!

last sunday was mama day so brought her out tog with my whole family and cousin james to have dinner tog.. booked a table at Crystal Jade Palace @ Taka.. had a fun dinner esp with xuan xuan and jaden arnd and the food was nice esp the baked prawns in salted eggs.. yummy! Hope my mom had a good time too and enjoyed her mama day!

my niece xuan xuan looking pretty in cheongsum!

my nephew jaden with his ironman toy..

me and my sis with the pretty pink lightings..

xuan & ja hugz!

Desaru Trip 01 ~ 03 May 08

went to desaru with dear and a bunch of colleagues (appu, sis oh, yean) over the May day holi.. we drove 3 cars down to desaru so that we can travel arnd more freely.. it was a relaxed trip, doing nothg much, just lazing arnd..

we stopped by kota tinggi waterfall on the way.. i rem gog there when i was very small and everybody just jumped into the cold cold water gushing down from the waterfall.. well the most i hav done now is just to step into the water and took some pics haha.. pass my childhood phase le.. how sad..

lost a bit of the way to desaru but managed to find it back.. originally booked a holiday chalet but i was aghasted by the conditions of the chalet.. the moment u walked in u can smell stale air and the toilet was like "OMG".. we managed to demand for a refund and booked resort rooms at Desaru Golden Beach Resort instead.. hmm.. much better..

the 1st day was spent on exploring the place.. went to the petting zoo, played go-kart, and walked arnd at the town.. wanted to ride a horse actually but after hearing the stories of the poor horses from the go-kart owner, i gave up the idea.. the horses were not given proper nutrients they are supposed to be getting and they hav to stand in the hot hot sun for the whole day and drinking water was not readily available.. poor thgs..

the next day we woke up at 6am, hoping to catch the sun rise.. disappointment cos the sky was overcast.. managed to capture some pics anyway..

the break of dawn.. hiding behind the clouds..

the moon and the sun..

we went to rent the jet ski after breakfast.. wanted to rent 2 but the owner told us that only 1 is working.. but we wanted to hav the fun tog so we willingly wait for the owner to repair the other jet ski.. we waited for 3 whole hrs and in the end he's not able to repair it! in other times i would hav blew up but we actually lazed at the beach for 3 whole hrs doing nothg but play water, sand and drink beer and listen to music.. cool.. ended up we had to take turns to ride on the only working jet ski.. dear drove the jet ski so fast that it was such a bumpy ride but it was damn fun!

we drove up to the ostrich farm in the afternoon.. first time i see so many ostrich and in such a close distance.. realised that ostrich can be such an "irritating" element cos its past time is to peck on thgs so while the worker is showing us arnd, one of it kept coming after us and tried to peck on our toes, head, body, everywhr.. and it's so huge lor.. scary~~ but it was a very educational and fun tour.. how often can one get up so close to so many ostrich who are way taller than us..

an one day old ostrich.. cute!

an emu welcoming us at the entrance..

my fav pic.. a "smiling" ostrich close up..

dear trying to be funny on an ostrich egg.. amazed that it can withstand his weight..

us.. "sitting" on the irritating ostrich..

after our seafood dinner, we went for our fireflies tour.. we travelled to an ulu jetty by the resort bus and board a boat.. it was very dark with the stars shining brightly above us.. the guide uses a ladle to splash water on the surrounding trees and the fireflies all light up.. wow! it was a pretty sight.. just like the lights on a christmas tree.. he managed to catch a few and placed them on my hands.. so happy to see them glowing on my hands! din managed to take any pics cos i supposed it wont turn out to be as nice as wat we experienced..

the next morning we checked out of the resort after breakfast to drive up to the fruit farm.. had durians there and bought mango hm.. drove back to singapore after that.. it was a fun and relaxing trip.. will definitely drive up there again when there's chance =)

Shape Run 2008...

was jio by PG to join this Shape run held by Shape Magazine on 20 July 08.. thot that it will be a good chance for me to regain my jogging regime and use it as an end goal to be achieved.. it will be a 5km run.. a distance i hav neva done before..

hopefully i can finish it and dun come in last man.. just imagine: everybody finished long long time ago alr and are impatiently waiting for this last person to run in.. and when the last person finally come in there's a widespread sigh of relief and the emcee will then announce the end of the programme as the last runner has finally finished the run.. no no i dun wanna be the one!

so my dear decided to seriously train me for this run.. he's very encouraging that im joining this run so that i will hav a goal in mind and will be more determined.. we had just finished our 2nd jog for this week.. our plan is to jog at least 3-4 times a week and gradually increase the distance.. currently im at 3km.. there's more to come but im enjoying this! =)

A Relaxed Day @ Sentosa..

brought koda & jackie out on last sunday.. wanted to bring them for a walk at west coast park but the weather was damn hot! so we ended up joy riding in the car to mount faber and had lunch at pasir panjang.. spent the whole afternoon nua-ing at my dear's plc..

was tinking whr to hav dinner cos there's not many places in S'pore that allows doggies to enter.. suddenly rem me and my sis used to bring koda to this sakae sushi branch at sentosa where they allow dogs at their alfresco area and it's just beside the beach.. nice plc to hang out with doggies.. so i called my sis to meet up for dinner and as usual she said ok readily..

food was so-so.. service no standard.. we hav to keep reminding them what's not here yet and they even ran out of ice at one point of time! but very nice scenary.. we can even see the performance from the "songs of the sea" where there are laser animations, water features and fireworks!

nice scenary facing our table..

me & baby koda =)

dear & cheeky jackie =P

my sis.. blurry pic taken by my nephew jaden..